The Chronic Diaries - Ashes To Ashes
Physical and mental breakdowns are like an uncontrollable fire that we often feel will never end. Surviving that inferno is incredibly difficult, but if you can fight through it, you will be able to rise from the ashes and live to fight another day!
The Chronic Diaries - Breathless
The oxygen that keeps us alive can be temporarily taken away in an instant when the pain gets to unbearable levels and the only way we can get any sort of relief is through a machine that gives us the extra oxygen we need.
Through all the hardships including learning to live with a myriad of health conditions, all the doctors visits, all the tests and all the setbacks, one thing is for certain. My experiences with my health have helped me grow as a person, and have made me who I am today.
There are things that those who are healthy take for granted, such as being able to walk, run, or even just having a shower without passing out. Being chronically ill changes all that. It helps you to appreciate the small things and the things that others take for granted.
When you are chronically ill, it feels as if you are stuck between two rocks. It feels inescapable, and like you will be forever crushed by the pressure and pain.
We all have our own little worlds that we escape to inside our heads. They are supposed to be like little bubbles that keep us safe and happy. Some of our worlds however, are like our own version of hell. We choose to act as if we are fine on the outside and never let anyone in so that they can't see how much we are suffering.
The Chronic Diaries - By A Thread
There are times in our lives where we are so on edge and everything is going so wrong that we feel that life isn't worth it. It feels like the threads of life are about to snap and we are about to descend down a dark path which can't be reversed. Will you escape the breaking thread and keep on fighting, or will you wait for it to snap and let the knife fall and claim you as its victim? I have chosen to fight!
The Chronic Diaries - The Clouded Mind
Brain fog, a cognitive malfunction where you lose all focus and you can’t think straight, is a common occurrence that everyone experiences. One of the many symptoms of one of my health conditions is a type of brain fog where it can get so bad I can lose the ability to even form sentences with my mouth or even function for periods of time.
The Chronic Diaries - The Breaking
When you first begin to realise how sick you are, your world starts to crumble down around you. It may only crumble a small bit at first, but once the symptoms begin to take over, it crumbles so much that it can seem impossible to keep your mind and body from completely breaking down.
The Chronic Diaries - Discarded
Being chronically ill, you quickly find out who you can trust, and who you shouldn't have trusted in the first place. Once you start to get sick some of your so called "friends" can often throw your friendship away and make you feel like complete trash, all because of something that is out of your control.
The Chronic Diaries - Crippling
Chronic pain can take someone down for months at a time, where in those months they are rarely able to even get out of bed. It changes a persons life forever, and it can get so bad that they are never able to live their lives the same way again. It can be completely crippling.
The Chronic Diaries - Reflections I Despise
These reflections are not what I envisioned. I am weak, frail, skin and bone and I cannot bear to see even a glimpse of what I have become.
The Chronic Diaries - Suffocation
Chronic illness can be suffocating both physically and mentally. It can drain every last bit of energy we have and it feels as if we have a plastic bag over our heads choking every last bit of life out of our bodies.
The Chronic Diaries - Faceless
Sometimes things happen in our lives that change us, they change us so much that we lose our identity, we become a shell of what we once were, we become faceless. Will you allow yourself to succumb to the pain of not knowing who you are, or will you stand and fight to regain your identity?
Anxiety can change your life. It can get so bad that you can't do things that you use to be able to do, you become afraid of things that you once loved, and it can make you never want to leave the house again and just wither away until you meet your bitter end.
The Chronic Diaries - Insanity
There are times where we crack under pressure. All the pain and suffering get too much, and we can’t handle it anymore. We lose all of our sanity that we once had. It’s terrifying when it happens, but we just have to find a way to calm down and not let our physical condition take over our state of mind.
The human body is confusing. My body is extremely confusing. It doesn't know what it wants to do, so it's always twisting and turning and doing all sorts of things that I don't understand that cause me so much grief, both physically and mentally. My body is my own personal version of hell.
Fix me, doctor. Fix me please. All I ask is that you find a cure, or some sort of relief. I’m sick of being bound in these bandages that are doing absolutely nothing to help.
The Chronic Diaries - Brace For Impact
Sometimes you can feel the fatigue coming on, other times you can't and it hits you so hard that it knocks you on your feet and it feels like you won't be able to get back up. When you do feel the fatigue coming on, brace for impact and try to push through it, no matter how exhausting it may get.
The Chronic Diaries - A Fragmented Soul
With every new diagnosis I get, I feel like I'm losing a little bit more of my soul each time. My body is no longer what it once was, and my soul has shared the same fate.
When you are chronically ill, it’s as if bed simultaneously becomes both your best friend and your worst enemy. You find yourself despising the fact that you are in bed constantly, but at the same time it is a much more comfortable place to be while you are unwell.
The Chronic Diaries - Boxed In
Sometimes we can get into situations which make us feel trapped and like we can't get out of them. Just remember that there is always hope! Just hold on to what little hope you may have, try as hard as you can to get out of the situation and you will get there eventually!
Sometimes we feel so emotionally and physically drained that we feel empty and worthless. We feel hollow.
There are times in life where we find ourselves roped into the middle of an argument between two of our loved ones. They both try to convince us to believe their side of the story and they keep trying to pull us towards their side of the fight, even though we don't want to be involved in the situation at all.
The Threads Of Life - Bound To Society
We often feel as if we are tied down to certain societal expectations and that we have to be the type of person that society thinks we should be. Don't let society's expectations dictate who you want to be. Be awesome, be unique, be you!
The Threads Of Life - Chokehold
There are often times in life where we are so stressed and under so much pressure that we feel as if we are under a chokehold and unable to breathe.
The Threads Of Life - Tug Of War
We can often find ourselves having a tug of war inside our minds when we don’t know what to do or which way to go in certain situations that life throws at us. Which side of this war of the mind will win? Only you can decide!
We can't always see where we are going or where we will end up in life, but we will never know if we don't keep pushing forward and face the future head on!
The Threads Of Life - Silenced
Everyone has opinions, but we can often find ourselves trapped in situations where we are not allowed to voice our opinions.
The Threads Of Life - Letting Go
Letting go is never easy to do, but sometimes we have to so we can be happy and move on with our lives.